A Selfie

Hi!  That’s me: Still in my jammies at noon, hair pulled up, no makeup. That’s what I was doing today.

2013, The Selfie

2013, The Selfie

Sean gifted me a camera upgrade (yeah yeah yeah, he’s a great guy – lets move on). I went from a very trusted, reliable, minimally-buttonized and limited-feature Rebel T3 (a gift Sean also provided to me) to a 60D.  And, while the 60D doesn’t have some of the bells and whistles of some of the bigger cameras, this is a big step for me.  Kelvin, remote controls (the real kind, not the 3-foot-corded-shutter-release kind), etc., etc.  It’s a little overwhelming.  So, I’m getting started by reading the manual.  Really reading it (not the glossy skimming I did for my Rebel, but really digesting it) – and taking a look at myself (via my first ever selfie).  This image is reflective of how I want to start, maintain, and finish 2013.

This year I want to be the year of introspection:  I want to get back in the driver’s seat of my life – to not feel like I’m constantly reacting to things, but actually being the driving force in them.  In order to do that I need to make some conscious decisions about what’s working (not a lot) and what’s not (plenty).  If I can’t change or fix them by the end of the year, I’m ditching them.  I’m going to write, then read, then edit my life manual.

This year I want to be the year of competence:  External validation is always nice, but it’s time for me to get back to a point where it doesn’t matter what others think; the point where I reason through things, and as long as I’ve done the best I can do then I get to allow myself some pride.  That it’s okay to pat myself on the back regardless of whether anybody else wants to participate.  I’m going to write, then read, then edit my life manual – and I’m going to do it in an orderly fashion and allow my self to celebrate each and every accomplishment.

This year I want to be the year of completion:  I have started so many things I can’t even remember them all.  So, I’ve spent the last month making a list.  It’s called my “OMG List”.  Seriously.  That much stuff.  It’s true: And it’s not happening anymore.  I’m going to work each item off until that list is manageable – and I’m not going to let myself do anything fun or new until I’ve completed certain milestones.  No more excuses.  I’m going to write, then read, then edit my life manual in an orderly fashion.  I’m going to give myself some “hoorays” and “attagirls”, and then I’m going to do the extra-credit exercises at the end and see what I can do even better.

I’ll be genuinely considering every aspect of my life, and I’m not purtyin’ up anything to do it.

I’m making 2013 the year of “The Selfie”.  Owning me…all over again.

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5 Comments

  1. by Nina on January 5, 2013  12:39 am Reply

    Beautiful selfie, Jessica! and congrats on the upgrade (i also upgraded). These sound like great, introverted, and mature goals for the year. i look forward seeing your work!

    • by Jessica on January 5, 2013  3:10 am Reply

      Thanks so much, Nina! Hooray for upgrades (though it is a little bit nerve-wracking to be learning it all over again)!! Can't wait to see what you produce with yours!

  2. by Valerie on January 19, 2013  4:04 am Reply

    :-) I seeee you!!!!! Perfect write up. I'm excited for you, I really am. Can't wait for you to feel the gratification that come along with marking off those items and really get back to what is most important. YOU. <3

  3. by Julie on January 20, 2013  1:27 am Reply

    Love this! Congrats on your upgrade, exciting! I like your style and look forward to seeing more of your photos and words. I could use a little overhaul myself :)

  4. by Jen on February 5, 2013  3:01 am Reply

    Attagirl!!!!! So happy for you!

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